Lately, my heart has grown hard. I feel anger and frustration. Anger at the violence and ignorance. Furious at the cowardice of our lawmakers. Frustrated doesn't come close to naming the fury I feel, being unable to change the course this country is taking. I need to cultivate courage, patience and hope because I love this damn world too much to let go. Maybe this hardness I feel in my chest is just the beginning of gaining a bit of the Love that bears all things. The heart is soft but it is strong, too. On good days I love you World, even the assholes. On the bad days, I breathe and try to remember that we are in this world but not of it. Lately, I sigh a lot.